you're ready more than you think you are

[my old crib in downtown pdx - on my way to church on a beautiful winter sunday] 

i am not sure what it is, but somehow, the last two sundays i was in town i keep waking up with church calling on me.  i never plan my sundays around church, i do that on christmas, thanksgiving, etc.  i have said this before, my random visits to church are encouraged by something else above me - an unexpected urge.

have you ever been faced with a predicament and your brain continues to leave you with a foggy view even if it feels right?  today's sermon was about being ready.  sadly, i was late for church and missed the first half of it, but i will share what i had gathered from what i heard.    the priest was saying that in all areas of our lives, god (or whoever you choose to believe in) asks us if we are ready.  most of the time, we never raise our hands because we are so unsure and we don't want him to call on us.  however, at the most unexpected times, he picks us because we're ready.

in this post, i mentioned that i had been thinking about wanting to do something else with my life.  something aside from the norm and whatever that is - i wanted it to be more meaningful.  the thing is that, when i started 2013 - i didn't really have an idea of what that would be - i wasn't sure if i would be ready for any change - the kind of change where it would involve myself putting others first.  the sermon today hit too close to home because i thought - whatever this change is - i have a feeling i have been picked because i am far more ready than i think i am.